"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference."
Sometimes life is messy and scary and emotional. And when you think you can't take anymore, it gets a little bit messier. Scarier. Harder. You have a good cry on what seems like a daily basis. You ask, "What is wrong with me? Why can't I just put on my big girl panties and breathe and relax and be strong?" You ask yourself what you could have done better or changed so you didn't end up this way, including the things that were outside of your control. You feel like you have to be perfect and have it together NOW. And when you're not, you feel like a failure. And you worry that if you tell someone you feel all these things that they'll judge you.
But guess what? You're allowed to feel what you feel. Upset and hurt and angry and sad. You don't need to have it together all the time because life isn't about being happy all the time. Life can be hard and it can really, really suck. Really. So be gentle to yourself. Appreciate this part of you, that feels so much. You feel these things because you care. You care a whole lot. And the world is in desperate need of more people like that.